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4 months ago on 17 June 2014 ~ 3:49am 1 note
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Phenomenal is too small a word. You were the sky Maya Angelou. Your light was the sun. Thank you so much for being the inspiration you were. You embodied beautifully the complete richness of life, showing that it is from both tragedy and joy that a sublime life derives itself. ❤️

'The caged bird sings with a fearful trill,
of things unknown, but longed for still, 
and his tune is heard on the distant hill, 
for the caged bird sings of freedom.’

#RIPMayaAngelou #IKnowWhyTheCagedBirdSings #YourLightShallForeverLiveOn 🙏

#Repost

Phenomenal is too small a word. You were the sky Maya Angelou. Your light was the sun. Thank you so much for being the inspiration you were. You embodied beautifully the complete richness of life, showing that it is from both tragedy and joy that a sublime life derives itself. ❤️

'The caged bird sings with a fearful trill,
of things unknown, but longed for still,
and his tune is heard on the distant hill,
for the caged bird sings of freedom.’

#RIPMayaAngelou #IKnowWhyTheCagedBirdSings #YourLightShallForeverLiveOn 🙏

4 months ago on 29 May 2014 ~ 1:40am 1 note
I was not a hypocrite, with one real face and several false ones. I had several faces because I was young and didn’t know who I was or wanted to be.
~ Milan Kundera
5 months ago on 30 April 2014 ~ 12:04am
We accept the love we think we deserve.
~ The Perks of Being a Wallflower
5 months ago on 28 April 2014 ~ 2:51am

Malaysia ≠ Home

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I have been in Malaysia for about a year and until now, I have managed to tolerate the very belittling way in which we as Africans are treated, particularly us the black Africans (yes, there are Africans that aren’t black). I recently read an article in which a particular editor was very vocal on our presence in this country and did not hold back in voicing what exactly should be done with us ‘black fellow’. (I will take this opportunity to mention how lacking their English is sometimes. Man!) In a nutshell, the article stated that Malaysia can do without us Africans. Surprisingly, this wasn’t the part that angered me the most, I think because the author of the piece justified this by speaking of the wrong doers among us and citing particularly violent crimes. Even if the whole article was hopelessly biased I could see where he was coming from. The part that had me boiling though was where he justified the very stereotypical view many Malaysians have of Black Africans, saying, “Even the honest and good ones from the continent’s countries are often viewed with suspicion. There is nothing wrong with thinking so…perception has become fact.”
What? This in fact saddened more than angered me because for a country that is growing amazingly in terms of development; this is such a close-minded concept. We have seen countries such as the US and South Africa struggle to heal from the damage caused by this conservative mindset and yet this country does not seem to borrow a leaf and learn! I get that there’s the rotten tomatoes, the bad batches that spoil our name, which is why time and time again I have overlooked some horrible treatment I have experienced. But to hear someone actually justifying this generalization all the while seeming to suggest that the good ones will just have to suffer discrimination as well simply because of their ethnicity, it’s an outrage.You cannot assume all Africans in Malaysia are in some way or another criminals. In fact if I am not mistaken, there is a greater number that are here to study - attain what has come to be known in Africa as some of the best education and get on with their lives.
And yes. There are black criminals that lurk on the streets of Malaysia. But would I lie if I said there where at least the same number of Malay, Chinese and Indian criminals lurking around the streets in the same manner? As a law student, I have had the opportunity to visit one of the prisons here in Malaysia and speaking from my very limited statistics, the number of criminals that are African must be less than 30% of the entire prison. Will ‘taking away the Africans’ therefore, reduce the crime rate in Malaysia by even a quarter? Using Africans as a scape goat at the end of the day will not solve this countries problems. Closing their eyes to the increasingly large number of rampant gangs and hardcore drug use among the Malaysians themselves will only serve to destroy the country.
I feel Malaysia as a country has so much to offer, but as a nation they need to move forward in their thinking, open their minds. On behalf of all the regular Africans like me out there, in Malaysia only hoping to attain a good education at the very least, I apologize for the behavior of some of our people. But I ask that you do not make sweeping assumptions about us all. We have so many great minds among us, people that can join forces with you, take you to the next level in development, if only you would open your eyes and see past the color of our skin.

5 months ago on 27 April 2014 ~ 5:29am 9 notes
Dig into my mind, not just my skirt.
~ Me
5 months ago on 26 April 2014 ~ 11:39pm

The ache for validation.
The desire, that sharp burning need to feel like I am enough.
The yearning for that stamp of approval.
Your words,
Or lack there of
Ring loud and clear
With what I feel is my inadequacy.
I want to scream with frustration at how helpless I am to these feelings.
I hate being made to feel so weak.
My insecurities however are what make me so susceptible.
You have the power to hurt me.
I loathe myself for giving it to you.

6 months ago on 21 April 2014 ~ 3:10am

To Be or not To Be

It’s okay not to be okay. But is it? Is it really? Is it okay to go ahead and do things despite not knowing what the heck you’re doing? Is it okay to take ‘leaps of faith’ when you know your faith has absolutely nothing to do with this leap? I’ve been told, its okay to be unraveled, to watch your life, like a ball of yarn, become completely undone and I think I’ve managed to believe it actually might be okay. I will survive the mistakes. The steps I take for me and no-one else? I’ll be able to erase the negative effects. But will I? Will I be able to pull myself out of the miry clay? Once I let myself slip, let my hair down, let the dice roll, let myself not be okay, but be young and wild and free, will it really be okay?

6 months ago on 8 April 2014 ~ 12:54am

Happy Birthday Dad

Dear Dad,

But it’s a good thing that you and mummy’s birthdays are so close! Which means the creative juices just have to flow once…:)

Jokes aside though, I don’t think I need any creative juices flowing to be able to express just how much I appreciate who you are as a father and a friend. You are a steady constant in my life daddy. A steadfast combination of unconditional love and unrelenting wisdom. You have immersed yourself personally in my growth from a very tender age, always helping with homework and revision even now into my university years. Despite the fact that I study so far away now, the time zones are hopelessly mismatched and you are incredibly busy with your own work, you still take the time to look over the essays I write and provide insight. Your patience and willingness to help me whatever the situation is definitely one of the reasons I have gotten as far as I have.

I am constantly tweeting on how your example as a father, has taught me I should never have to settle for less in a man. I mean, who takes time out of their busy schedule to sit and cut onions and chat with their daughter? You are one of a chosen few daddy. Your the model of the man I hope one day to marry. If I find someone that understands me and accepts me for who I am, even half as much as you do mummy, I know I will have found my good thing. You and mummy are evidence, that with a little work and a whole lot of love, God’s ‘action’ kind of love, an incredible marriage is possible.

Even though you are a man of few words, I have picked very clearly the lesson of purity and the importance of waiting in The Lord from you. The ring that you gave me on my 18th symbolizing my maturity as a person and as a daughter of the heavenly father is one I wear with pride. Even now as I continue to mature we are able to grow together in The Lord and appreciate his goodness together. Today is your day daddy, and words cannot begin to express how much love I have for you and how thankful I am The Lord blessed me with you. You are a treasure, my treasure. And I shall always be one of your girls.

With all my love,

Your Daughter, Mahunde.

8 months ago on 22 February 2014 ~ 3:36pm

Anti-Porn, Anti-Gay: Yes or No?

As a soon-to-be lawyer, and Uganda being my country, I feel obliged to say a word or two about the anti-pornography bill and in turn the anti-gay bill that have caused quite a stir. Okay a word or two is me down playing it, you might be reading a while.

I think, if my twitter and facebook feeds are anything to go by, people’s biggest problem with the anti pornography bill is that the government is misusing its already very limited resources and legislating on ‘useless’ issues. Furthermore, it is of widely held opinion that the way women dress should be a personal decision and not something the government should be able to legislate on, and I think I am inclined to agree with the latter. But I think people that view this act as simply a ‘mini-skirt’ ban, are speaking from a point of ignorance. The bill, like every other, contains many clauses, and right from the definition it’s obvious that pornography, as defined by the government includes a range of activities, indecent exposure being only one; “Any cultural practice, form of behavior or form of communication… or leisure activity… that depicts a person engaged in explicit sexual activities or conduct … erotic behavior intended to cause sexual excitement or indecent act or behavior intended to corrupt morals”. Intent, speaking from the perspective of a lawyer, is a very important element of criminal activity. I speak as an amateur when I say this so I beg not to be quoted, but for one to have broken this law by say, wearing a miniskirt, then I think an intention of enticing sexual excitement and corrupting morals would have to proven. This of course would involve looking at the act to see if specific situations are given where intent can be assumed and so on and so forth. The bottom line then, begs the question, when you put on that mini skirt that you are so valiantly fighting for, what is your intent?

Also, the people so against the bill are I think, downplaying immensely, the effect of pornography on the state of a country. Be it with regarding to crime rates, brokenness of families or even general development. The fact that pornography leads to higher crime rates especially in regards to women, I assume comes as no surprise to you. A paper I read recently, http://www.aic.gov.au/media_library/publications/proceedings/20/goldsmith.pdf, gives in more detail, the relationship between pornography and rape. I feel the stories we hear and read about in the news everyday are evidence enough that sexual crime is something that is rampant in Uganda. In 2012, Marlon Agaba, an ANPPCAN information officer said approximately 21 children are reported defiled everyday in Uganda. The key word being reported. When we begin to think of the number that say nothing we realize this is just a tip of the ice berg. That was about two years ago. Given that nothing has been done on, I assume the number has only risen in the past year. Yes, I realize that pornography may not be the sole reason or cause for these statistics, but as long as it has been identified as a reason, will we not take a step to cut at least one source? I think I do not need to go into detail when mentioning the abominable practice of sex tapes all across the countries universities, the most publicized one being the ‘UCU’ sex tape. If pornography is not at least partially to blame for such behavior then I wonder what is.

Now, the anti-gay bill. I will side with many Ugandans and say I stand for it. Just yesterday I was reading an open letter to President Barack Obama by a fellow lawyer and blogger, http://pronambatya.wordpress.com/2014/02/17/an-open-letter-to-a-western-bully/ where she voiced very clearly what I think is the truth on the entire situation. Romans 1:18-32, specifically verse 27, very clearly mentions homosexuality as one of the perversions men suffered God’s wrath for. At the end of the day, the Lord that I serve is real, and whether you choose to believe this or not, it’s a truth that cannot be changed. So homosexuality goes beyond being just against the law and morals of our country, it goes against my God. This in no way means I am for the violence and ostracization that many might be subjected to. I believe that they are like every one of us, sinners that need to be shown love and guidance back to the cross, to the father’s arms. Legislating against the practice therefore does not mean ‘Kill the gays’ as the bill has been referred to by the international community. It angers me when I say signs like ‘God hates gays’ or ‘Pray your gay away’. It’s mocking of Christ’s entire grace message and only serves to drown people even further into this vice! Personally? I know gay people. I have never in any way suggested that I am for their lifestyle but I do not hate them or blatantly disrespect them either. I too have sinned! And if anyone ridiculed or even threatened to kill me over the sins have committed and assured me they were from God? I wouldn’t be where I am now. I wouldn’t have fallen as madly in love with Christ as I did. I wouldn’t even want to know him! We are against the practice not the person. It’s not part of God’s plan. (http://www.godandscience.org/evolution/genetics_of_homosexuality.html) One is not born homosexual as studies have shown. Looking at the jail time homosexuals are to receive, I believe counseling and guidance would be of more benefit.

1 Corinthians 6:9-11. Sexual immorality. One of the vices that the bible specifically mentions as barring your way into the kingdom. These laws currently being imposed serve to curb, at least to a certain extent this vice among Ugandans. Because of the gravity with which the Lord views sexual sin and the meager statistics I have provided above, I think these laws are in fact very necessary and are a step in the right direction for Uganda.

Stay Blessed

Esi

8 months ago on 20 February 2014 ~ 8:04am 1 note